Waiting is not my forte! I do love Eagles however. They are a beautiful animal, that represent a soaring freedom I'm drawn to. I've watched eagles in the wild soar to incredible heights and then swoop down onto a mountain lake to snatch their food from the unsuspecting fish that will soon be their lunch. In spite of my love of eagles, and their graceful freedom, I'm not good at waiting. But that's what I have been forced to do these past 2 months. I had my 12th knee surgery on June 29th, which was going to put me out of commission for 2-3 months, and just had my 13th knee surgery on August 30th, which will put me down for another 2-3 months. Apparently I wasn't 'waiting' well enough, and tore a tendon trying to rehab the June 29th operation. So this time, my doctor has me in a brace for quite awhile with the stern warning that if I tear it again, he won't be able to fix it. So here I am again, waiting.
The problem is, I am a Martha. I'm a doer, and I can hear Jesus' words to her in Luke 10:41-42, "Michael, Michael, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken from her." Ouch! I have so many things I want to "DO." But God has made me sit and 'be still.' I would love to say that I am gaining so much perspective, or that my mind is less anxious, but this is what I fight, because there is so much I want to do, and so much ministry I believe I am missing while I am sitting around, and 'waiting.'
What I am realizing though is God is more concerned with my character than my mission or my comfort for that matter. God has the mission in hand, but I'm still a work in his hands, and right now, He's saying wait, trust me, I got you! While I might feel like the baby eagle that got pushed out of the nest and is falling to its death, God promises that those who wait, will 'renew their strength,' and will 'mount up with wings like eagles!' That's a pretty cool promise that I'm holding on to.